And I'm outta here!

This entire thing seem so surreal, I leave in just a few hours. If you see my kids while I am gone remind them their Mom loves them very much! If you see my husband remind him what an amzaing man he is and tell him to get some sleep!

I want to post but just can't right now my mind is racing

Packing

Wow this is coming so fast now!  I leave Thursday morning to start the final leg of this journey.  I just read the post about Cade and it still makes me so sad to think about.  The boys still talk about him often and draw pictures of him or for him.  When I last talked to the adoption coordinator she said I could possibly go to him while we are there.  I don't know if I can, I want to but I am worried that I may never forget what I see and what if it's not as beautiful and peaceful as I see it in my mind.  Would it be healing or would it be pain, I just don't know.  This trip is already so emotional and intense, it's only 4 short days and then we leave Ethiopia and head home.  My babies need their Mommy focused on them but so much of them is from him, I just don't know....I will never get this opportunity again and I feel like if I leave without going I may always regret it.  Boy this post turned a different direction didn't it.

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